High School Is Over

Over the past few weeks I have slowly been coming to a realization that I'm not too pleased with. High School friendships just don't seem to last. It's true about the whole quote: 

"Some people are meant to stay in your life while others are just meant to make an appearance."

It's been almost 2 years since I graduated high school, and over those two years I have stopped talking to more and more people I knew when I was still in school. It was easy to make friends in high school, and it was also easy to be friends with just about anyone. After high school, especially because I didn't rush off to college, I haven't had much opportunity to make new friends. And I've never been incredibly good at makes friends to begin with. Well here I am, now almost 20 years old, and realizing, I don't really have any friends anymore. I have family, which is wonderful and great, but no friends. I have a few people that pop in everyone once in a while to see how I'm doing, but no one that really cares about whats going on in my day to day life. I'm not going to lie, I miss having a best friend, someone who would call me anytime they had some juicy news, or just needed someone to help them figure out what color to dye their hair. 

This is why yesterday, after finally deciding maybe it's time to move on, I deactivated my facebook account. Facebook makes it too easy, it takes all the effort out of being a friend. You don't have to remember their birthday, Facebook does it for you. You don't have to call them or text them to see whats going on in their life, it pops up in your news feed. So I got rid of mine. Now if someone really, sincerely, wants to be my friend, they're going to have to put effort into it. Like call me, or text me, and they're going to have to actually talk to me in order to find out whats going on in my life. And you know what, that talking might take an hour, but in return I'm going to ask them whats going on in their life, and actually listen. Because I care. Sometimes I think I care too much... 

I'm done trying to be someone's friend when I'm the only one who makes the effort. Friendships can't be one sided, just like a relationship can't be. I'm not going to make someone a priority in my life if I'm only a convenient option when the mood suits them.

I have a wonderful family, a loving husband and a beautiful son. I will be just fine. And I'm past the point of needing more than that to make me truly happy. 

Like I said, High School is over. If you want to keep friends, you have to try at it. But if they don't try back, then its just not meant to be. 

Not to mention, I spent WAY too much time on facebook, trolling other people's lives. Constantly looking at other people's lives is not the way to live. So I'm going to focus on my life, and how wonderful it is. I am one lucky woman, and I couldn't ask for a better life.

I took my situation from my home life, and I walked away, I bettered myself. I made myself happy. And once again, that's what I am doing. Walking away, to make myself happier. Because dwelling on the past isn't going to get me anywhere.